Autumn

It seems late this year

The yellowing of these leaves

This carpet of foliage composted

The fogging of my breath

Under the low white sunlight

 

He turns off the path to sniff and snort

Rifling at sycamore roots

Curling through the pawpaws

Grazing among elm volunteers

Stripping twigs bare

Munching last green leaves

Same botanical breakfast he had yesterday

 

He tears off after deer

Gone for 15 minutes or so

For him, the world is alive

With smells, sounds, and vibes

He finds patterns and reads signs

Identifies friend, foe, and prey,

He comes back to greet a Lab

Gets chased by a Visla

Hunts for the fox that left the scat

And ignores the rest

 

We follow the creek up

Towards the library gardens

We pass two elderly walkers,

Wielding four poles between them

People are friendly out here

Nodding or saying hello or nothing

Careful to never interrupt

Each other’s private idyll

 

A middle-aged white guy

Shlubby, but decent like me

Like most of us, probably

Comes up the path

Followed by his well-behaved Doodle

We nod to each other, dogman to dogman

We complement the hounds

Stepping past each other

And on our ways forever

 

Only then do I notice his IDF baseball cap

It reminds me of the hospital yesterday

And my colleague who cheered it on

And the other who wrings his hands

But says nothing

 

I continue walking up the path,

Heart thumping,

Breaths cut

By the climb

Or the sight of a hat

 

I cross the bridge and continue up

I think of all the things I could have said

But didn’t

And suddenly, for the first time

I notice how alone I am

Where’d he go?

 

I think he was up there all along,

But I couldn’t see him for the tears

He was kneeling, snout in muck

Then rolling in it,

A pile of scat, an old carcass, or both

Get out of there, you filthy…!

Even from this distance

You can smell the stench of shit and death on him

(October 2024)